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Mmm.

It’s kinda gotten to the point where I kinda feel like I’ve been stuck in one place too long. I mean, I hang out with mostly people I knew in high school, and for some reason it’s started to get old to me. I realized how boring it is to see the same people everywhere. I go home and I hang out with friends and it’s mostly the same people again. At one point I really stopped caring about hanging out (didn’t bother going to Moody’s for poker and watching the football game) because I’d seen them so much.

I started talking to Megan again tonight for the first time since April. (I mean, like actually talking and not being totally ignorant or unresponsive.) I know I can do this now because I don’t feel anything for her anymore. No more pain, no more regret, no more anger. I love Sara and I have faith in our relationship. I dunno. There’s that line from Rent, “forget regret, or life is yours to miss,” and I think it’s kinda stuck with me.

Talked to Rashaad about this stuff, and he reminded me that I should make sure that I don’t let myself become anything that isn’t me. It’s quite unfortunate that I don’t exactly know what is me, so…

I’ve been playing out the past few months by ear, right? Just been feeling it out and getting acquainted with it, but not totally immersed in life here… I honestly think it’s time to change that.

Hm, it’s going to be a tough three weeks no matter how you cut it. I wish I’d never have to leave Sara, it was hard enough for both of us even before I left. No choice but to keep on going, eh? I’ll see her again in three weeks, and that at least keeps me well enough to get through.

Edits: changed the schedule a bunch, lol.

• Monday
  • 11-12 - GCB 311 - General Honors 2112H (Middle Ages & Renaissance)
  • 12-1 - Allen Auditorium - History 2210 (Twenty First Century America)
• Tuesday:
  • [9-10 - Conservation Auditorium - Journalism 1010H (Career Explorations In Journalism) - Jan 17 - Mar 3]
  • 10-12 - EBW 144 - CS 2050 Lab
  • 12:30-1:45 - Middlebush Auditorium - Psychology 1000 (General Psychology)
  • 2-3:30 - Middlebush Auditorium - Journalism 1100 (Principles of American Journalism)
• Wednesday:
  • 11-12 - GCB 311 - General Honors 2112H (Middle Ages & Renaissance)
  • 12-1 - Allen Auditorium - History 2210 (Twenty First Century America)
  • 3-4 CS 2050 Lecture
• Thursday:
  • [9-10 - Conservation Auditorium - Journalism 1010H (Career Explorations In Journalism) - Jan 17 - Mar 3]
  • 12:30-1:45 - Middlebush Auditorium - Psychology 1000 (General Psychology)
  • 2-3:30 - Middlebush Auditorium - Journalism 1100 (Principles of American Journalism)
• Friday:
  • 11-12 - GCB 311 - General Honors 2112H (Middle Ages & Renaissance)
  • 12-1 - Allen Auditorium - History 2210 (Twenty First Century America)
  • 3-4 CS 2050 Lecture

What I like about the Career Explorations in Journalism class is that it counts as an honors class, though it’s only one hour credit and it only lasts halfway through the semester. After that point, my earliest classes will only be at 10am, heh. Now, besides J1010, I only have a CS lab. If it’s anything like this semester, I won’t be doing that. lol… Besides, 10am isn’t that early at all, and Moody’s in that class to back me up anyway. Granted I won’t stop until 4pm in the afternoon some days next semester, still, that’s pretty do-able. (I’m done after noon on Mondays though, heh. The very first rough draft had me actually totally off on Mondays.)