December 28, 2006; 3:00 am
I’m breaking the rule of “don’t post anything immediately after writing it–wait until morning or a couple days later,” and going back to the old school way of blog-soapboxing.
We have got through so much worse than this before
What’s so different this time that you can’t ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes
The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love
And I don’t know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness
—“Make This Go On Forever” by Snow Patrol
How do you tell your heart to shut up? Life, literature, music, and movies tell us that we can be in love when it doesn’t make sense and when it doesn’t have any hope at all. How do you get past that and get back to reality?
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December 10, 2006; 8:16 pm
Because I like to waste my time when I should really be studying for final exams, here is the playlist I’ve compiled of music to get me through these tough times. Starts off very high-octane and consists of mostly energetic tracks… But near the end it transitions nicely to easier folk-ish listening.
Most of this music is music I’d only discovered in 2006, thanks to either Matt Adams or my cousin Chris. Some rock songs from earlier in the decade made it in because of sentiment–I hadn’t heard some of these in a while. Yes, strangely enough, it’s possible to have Linkin Park and Sufjan Stevens in the same playlist.
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December 3, 2006; 7:34 am
I told you I’d humor you/myself. This reflects an incomplete copy of this text. “asdfasdf” and such variations = “this paragraph or section is incomplete, insert text here.”
Written between November 16 and December X.
Monday
“You want to go get some coffee? I’m about to head downtown anyway. I’ll buy you a drink.”
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